Help I can't find my cheese!

I'm still playing catch up.  I feel like a hamster in it's wheel, running, running, running and never getting anywhere.  So instead of avoiding my blog and making myself miserable.  I'm back. 
My diet has been ehh...I'm not counting calories.  Instead the big guy and I have been cooking at home.  Phentermine has been a no go...just because it's so damn expensive.  Exercise is nil.  I'm coming up on a three week vacation from work (it's the slow season) so hopefully that will change. 

I have been looking into Greenling Organic Delivery. 

It's about 50 bucks for the Local Produce & Farmstead Box which is a hodge podge of local & organic produce plus other goodies.   Their slogan is "farmers market at your door".   Has anyone ever used this service?  

Maybe these guys can help my find my cheese...and some local Jerusalem Artichokes.  

Feeling off...

I have to make a confession. 

I thought getting married wasn't going to be a big deal. 

I figured the wedding would just be a giant party, a piece of paper, an awesome trip and then life as usual. 

I figured once the whirlwind of planning and traveling was over we would settle back into our routine and I'd be able to jump back into a diet plan feet first. 

So far it just hasn't happened  it's been over a month and I'm still struggling to catch up.  Thank you notes, the name change, household chores, bills, IOU's (to pay back), work, parties it just hasn't stopped. 

The two weeks of our trip to Vegas and London, I did not track, I didn't not watch what I ate, I drank like a fish, I did not take my diet medication.

We walked everywhere. 

The first weigh in back home, I weighed the same as I did when we left.   

The two weeks following I gained 12 pounds.

Me & The Big Guy October 2 @ our San Antonio Party

I'm honestly feeling a little ashamed, a little disheartened, hell even a little depressed.  I should have this.  I've done so much already.  Yet, I just can't seem to find my groove again. This is why I've been slow to comment on blogs or respond to emailed questions. It's like I've got a giant to-do list swirling around inside my head and my health/blog isn't even on it.   

I need a butt kicking...who's up for the job? 

Will you Lose It?

We've all heard the reports that people who track their meals are more likely to consume fewer calories.

I know it helps me to see WHAT I'm eating and WHERE my calories are coming from. (ahem...soda)

I've had several emails from readers asking what I use to track my meals and exercise.  I've tried several programs and Lose It! has been the one that I've been able to stick with.

Originally Lose It! was only available as an iPhone/iTouch app but with their most recent update anyone can sign up and use it online!

All for FREE. 

They have several really cool functions on top of it being a  food/exercise/weight tracker.

They have a motivators section where you can set alarms (on your iPhone) to remind you to track, you can also request to have your daily food logs sent to yourself or another person, and for the really brave you can post your stats via twitter and facebook.  

Lose It! also features an online forum for members to talk each other out of late night cookie dough binges, you can get tips on how to spice up your workout, or you can just network with other dieters. 

Another feature that's helped me alot is the trends report. This report breaks down which foods you eat all the time, by showing you how often you eat them, the amount of calories you have consumed total of that item and your average calories per serving.   They also have a report that tracks your exercise trends so you can see if you need to switch up your routine.

Now it's your turn!  

Do you track your calories?

If you do what program do you use and why?

Cha...Cha...Changes (Giveaway!)

If you have not done so please enter the giveaway on my old blog!  

For those of you coming here from my old blog, thanks!  I appreciate your continued support! 

I will unveil all of my diabolical diet plans next post!

(rest assured no circus animals are included...unless you count the big guy) 

Liar



"It's okay to eat this cookie, I'll just work it off later."

"I just can't stick to a 'plan'."

"Man, these pants must have shrunk in the dryer."

"I'll work out tomorrow."

"I don't need to measure my servings, I can just eyeball them."

"It doesn't matter."

" I'm just going to screw up tomorrow."

"It's just water weight."

"I can't do it."

"It's hard for someone to take a good picture of me."

"I don't have a problem"

"There's no correlation between my weight and debt/anxiety."

"I'm too big to do that." 

I am a liar.

A big fat one.

With every lie I tell myself, I die a little bit more.

After all when we give ourselves the opportunity or the excuse to fail, we will fail. 

I've got to stop hurting myself, the lies have to stop. 

Question: How do you keep yourself honest?